OH BABY

Ben has been super busy lately. Lots of eating & sleeping (and not too many breaks for Momma). But that is ok:) At least we are on our own little schedule now. And I love it! And him too! And his Daddy of course:)
The past month, yes it has been a month already, seems to have flown by! Where do the days go? They run together. Some days it's a toss between a shower or a nap. Breakfast & lunch come after everyone (don't forget about the puppies) is fed. Breastfeeding is no cake walk. But I wouldn't trade one second of this new life for anything! It's perfect & wonderful & great! I just love Ben with all my heart. And I know Matt does too....he hardly puts him down when he comes home from work. They are best buds! It's still amazing to look at him & see what we helped create.
We had a busy Father's Day weekend. I took Matt out to Kilkenny's (it's where we had our first date) for a dinner date. Then Sunday our families came over for hamburgers & hotdogs on the grill. It was great to celebrate with Matt and my Dad:)

TIME

I cannot believe how quickly time is flying by. What is even crazier than that is our sweet little man has been here 2 weeks already! I still look down at him when I hold him and cannot believe he was INSIDE of me 2 weeks ago. Ha! Was my belly really that big? Matt tells me to hold my hands out farther:) On Friday we go see Dr Henley for his 2 week check-up.....I can't wait to see what happens there.....we took him in last week and he had already gained some weight. We measured him on Sunday and he has grown a little too. I can't wait to get the official numbers! He doesn't even look like his newborn pictures anymore.....looks more like a little boy every day.

Thursday Matt goes back to work. 1 more day with him at home:( I've already secretly cried a few tears over this. I just don't want our days together to end. I love him being at home with us, even if he is out rearranging the garage or mowing or watering the yard.....he is still HERE. There is just something magical that happens when two people have a baby together (who are still in love with each other). There really are no words to describe it. It is truly a miracle and blessing from God and we are so thankful to have been lucky enough to take part in this little man's creation. Looking down at him, so sweet, takes my breath away to know he is half Matt and half me.....sort of. So little but so perfect with every little detail in place just as it should be. Every little finger and toe and perfectly formed ears. His little bootie and perfectly rounded nose. Just amazing.

Matt and Ben hanging out....I love these boys!

I just can't get enough of either of my guys. Time seems to be flying by so fast, and I try to make every moment count....even when we have a fussy baby or when Matt & I are tired and not communicating like normal adults. They are both so amazing and precious to me. I pray every day for God's protection of them.....don't know what I would do without either of them!

OUR BABY STORY

Sunday May 22nd my husband and I drove the St John Owasso ER and were admitted for ob observation. I was having contractions and only dilated to a "4" so they kept me for an hour to see if my labor would progress. This started at about 930 or 10pm.....and about 11pm my nurse (who is awesome) checked me and decided to tell the Dr on call I was at a "5"....even though I was still a "4". She didn't want to send me home in the storms....their hospital in Joplin had just been hit & she didn't want me to leave & have to come back during all that. THANK YOU ANDREA!!
My contractions become more severe and more frequent. I was finally admitted and taken to a labor & delivery room and in the meantime, the family started showing up. I got iv's hooked up and some medication to take an edge off the pain. All this quickly happened. My water broke and my nurse came to check me again....all of a sudden I had gone from a "6" to a "9" in 10 minutes and then I delivered Benjamin Matthew at 152am. Quick. Like so quick, my nurse actually delivered my baby & the other nurses were calling down to the ER for some extra hands. Oh and since all this happened so quickly....no epidural. Ugh.

Thank God for an awesome nurse and staff there. The Dr on call finally arrived in time to stitch my tear up, but that is all she was good for.

And more thankfully my most amazing husband, who has taken my love a million levels higher. He was the best partner I could ever ask for & the minute our son was born, was a moment no words can describe. I love you Matt!

Here Ben is showing off his milk mustache...he loves some milkies! He is so fun & such a blessing!

ANXIOUS

I'm anxiously waiting for our sweet little man to arrive!!! Impatiently though:( We went to the doctor Wed and he said we are dilated to about a 2 or 3. But nothing since then. I've had maybe 5 contractions the past couple days. Ugh. Like I said on facebook.....nobody likes to get 30% of the way there & then be at a standstill. Oh dear.....the hormones are coming out over the internet!! Get this baby out of here soon!! His Momma is going crazy! (and yes, poor Matt is ever patiently waiting, rubbing my back, calming my anxiety, being a saint!)

BAREFOOT & PREGNANT

37 Weeks.......

Barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen on Mother's Day. 3 weeks (max) to go! Hurry up & get here (safely) Baby Dill. Everyone is ready to meet you!

RELIEF

Our awesome rocker/glider from Pottery Barn Kids FINALLY came in yesterday. We've had the ottoman for about a month, but no chair. It is huge and wonderful. I love it! Thanks to my parents (Gigi and Poppa) for buying it for us! Come rock the baby one day, you won't want to leave.

I have been busy trying to get the house/yard/nursery ready for the baby.....and sometimes it just doesn't happen. Why is it so hard for people to do their jobs? Even when it is so simple, it's a struggle. I got the septic guy BACK out yesterday & he fixed our sprinkler. Hooray! That only took like uhmmmm who knows how many months. Our builder has been a bit of a bear to deal with lately, so this has seemed like a never-ending challenge.

Tuesday we had a dr appt. Nothing to report. Nothing new. Baby still sideways. Heart rate was 138-140. Typical. Normal. Fine. Next week when we go back he'll start checking me to see if my cervix has changed or if we are dilated at all. Probably not. He'll feel for the position of a head down baby. If he doesn't feel a head, we will be on our way to having an ultrasound and most likely scheduling a c-section. Baby Dill is still moving around & giving me some pretty good kicks and stretches. This Momma is ready for him to be done cookin'!! Come out and play:)

Today I am going to try to rest and make a shopping list for this weekend of baby items to return and buy. Whew. Then this weekend we are hosting a brunch for our families/mother's for Mother's Day on Sunday. Should be fun. Hopefully we can get the nursery in some kind of order before then!

STILL SIDEWAYS

Sigh. Baby Dill is still sideways:) We had a good Dr visit today. Baby is comfy as ever, chillin' sideways in my tummy. Not sure why he hasn't moved into head down position, but nothing to worry about, it could still happen. However, I think he's stubborn like his Daddy & is staying this way. So in 2 weeks we will have a scan/ultrasound done to see if he has moved, if not, it looks like a c-section will be in store for us!

Kind of have mixed feelings about this, but it's not up to me. I know recovery is longer with a c-section but at the same time, I don't want to do anything to put our baby or myself in any harm or distress. I wonder how Matt will do with the whole scrubbing in/being present for surgery?

We are getting excited for our little man to arrive! We just has an awesome shower in OKC hosted by my Aunt and are having another one this weekend hosted by my Sister-in-law. We'll have tons of stuff to wash and put away and arrange, and it is so much fun to do! There are still a couple of things Mom and Dad have to do before he arrives, so at this point, let's hope it isn't early!